Thoughts, Rants and Random Things.

100 Years - Five For Fighting

2012-01-26T10:40:00.000-08:00

I'm 15 years for a moment
Caught in between 10 and 20
And I'm just dreaming
Counting the ways to where you are

I'm 22 for a moment
She feels better than ever
And we're on fire
Making our way back from Mars

15 there's still time for you
Time to buy and time to lose
15, there's never a wish better than this
When you only got 100 years to live

I'm 33 for a moment
Still the man, but you see I'm a they
A kid on the way
A family on my mind
I'm 45 for a moment
The sea is high
And I'm heading into a crisis
Chasing the years of my life

15 there's still time for you
Time to buy, Time to lose yourself
Within a morning star

15 I'm all right with you
15, there's never a wish better than this
When you only got 100 years to live

Half time goes by
Suddenly you’re wise
Another blink of an eye
67 is gone
The sun is getting high
We're moving on...

I'm 99 for a moment
Dying for just another moment
And I'm just dreaming
Counting the ways to where you are

15 there's still time for you
22 I feel her too
33 you’re on your way
Every day's a new day...

15 there's still time for you
Time to buy and time to choose
Hey 15, there's never a wish better than this
When you only got 100 years to live

Until recently, I never realize that this song has such a deep meaning. It tried to show us what happens in someone's life. When you're fifteen, you still have much time left, you play around and have fun.

I'm kind of interested in the "I'm 33 for a moment. Still the man, but you see I'm a they, a kid on the way, babe, a family on my mind." part. To me it just shows us that in whatever way you were raised, despite your gender, your career and whatsoever.. There will be a moment in your life where you want to settle down, get married and build a family.

For me, to have a man think about it makes the idea sounds even sweeter.

45, the mid-life crisis strikes, perhaps. Some people encounter even bigger problems, they went through divorces, career obstacles, rebellious kids. Then suddenly you're 67, you're getting wiser.

When you're 99, you long for another moment. For a few more years, but you couldn't. You're waiting to go back to where you are.

Who are you? It could be God. It could be your spouse. It could be your soulmate. It could be anyone.

How Twitter's Slowly Turning Into Facebook

2012-01-23T06:17:00.000-08:00

I guess most people in this planet are familiar with Twitter, a micro-blogging service that was launched in 2006. This service has almost 300 million users worldwide, and the number's still growing. I signed up for an account in 2009 and I proudly say that I'm still an active user, enjoying the free flow of information I've been experiencing since then.

A few years ago, when Twitter hasn't got the spotlight and attention it has nowadays, Facebook is the only social media teenagers got. As far as I can recall, there was a trend back then, where people add people they barely know as friends on Facebook. They would start bragging on how many Facebook friends they have, it became a competition. It doesn't matter if you never interact with that person, as long as they're your Facebook 'friend'.

And sadly, Twitter is slowly following that trend.

Some people follow their friends in real life and asks for them to 'follow back'. Again and again, even though you barely know the person or barely interested in that person's tweets, and even though you never interacted with them through mentions or direct messages. Just for the sake of 'connecting' with these people.

And worse, some people follow people they DON'T KNOW. They'll ask for you to 'follow them back', even though they haven't introduced themselves properly, even though they know that you're strangers to each other. And that's it, almost-zero interaction.

I'm not here to judge. After all, I was a follower of the 'follow back' trend. Until I realize how bad it is for me to have these people flood my timeline with numerous chats and retweets.

The fact that my timeline is full of chats and comments between people I don't know bugs me. I am not interested in their tweets, I followed them only for the sake of friendship. When you unfollow or don't follow them back, what they think is that you don't consider them as friends anymore. When the truth is, you're just not interested in reading their tweets, yet. Maybe you haven't really know each other, yet.

And what choice is left? Oh right, the mute option.

I've been there. The point where your social media barely feels private anymore. I feel like I'm no longer the owner of my Twitter account, because I'm no longer the one deciding which account to follow.

As for the 'follow back' trend on Twitter, I don't think real life relationships should be based on whether you follow each other on Twitter or not. And since this is my account, I shall stick to my own rule: Never follow people you don't know, or whose tweets you're not interested in. Unless you're @TIME or @BritishVogue, don't expect me to break that rule any time soon.

What's one food you'll never eat again?

2011-06-22T22:56:00.001-07:00

Natto, perhaps.

Ask me anything

Would you rather be rich or famous?

2011-06-22T22:55:00.001-07:00

I'd rather be rich. Fame is creepy.

Ask me anything

Wise Words Hurt, But They're Always Right

2011-06-07T01:58:00.001-07:00

In their song "Breakeven" The Script stated:

"But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding.."

Well yeah, right. Words can never heal. It may help you to go through pain and problems, and when you're feeling normal those words sound oh-so-wise. But when you're in pain... Believe me, nothing can stop the pain.

Still, wise words are always right. Wise words will tell you to move on, when you feel like staying. Because the people who have been through it all.. They know better. They don't want others to fall... That's why they invented those wise lines.

Hey, I've been there too. And I have to admit that in the end, those words are right. So it is up to you people now. No one has ever died from having too many problems, so no worries. The only thing you might lose is time... And in some case, moments and a few people.

Wishing for every one of you to be happy.

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I'm In!

2011-05-18T06:29:00.001-07:00

Oh. Jesus. Christ.

I got admitted in IR University of Indonesia. Class of 2011.

God has answered my prayers!
I prayed so that He would let me be in UI.. And He did.
I prayed so that He would give me friends.. And He did.
I prayed so that He would provide me with a place to stay.. And He did.

It's just a matter of time until I saw all my prayers come true. JC rocks!

If things turn out like this.. How could I say there is no God?

Thanks to @revaldinw @revianw who I know have been supporting me a LOT. You guys prayed for me and you guys were also waiting in front of the computer for the result last night.

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I'm Done With High School!

2011-05-16T20:37:00.001-07:00

Yesterday (Monday, May 16th) the result of our National Exam was published.

And yes, I passed it.
With the final score of 54.20 out of 60.

Hurrah! I'm practically dancing! Finally! After 12 years of studying!

So when I'm in elementary school, I've always wondered how would it feel to be in junior high. The same thing happens when I'm in junior high.

My senior high school life has been great. It all started when I won a speech competition in SMAN 4 Denpasar when I was in 9th grade, and one of the prize was a recommendation letter to be enrolled in the school.

My junior high school is a private school with full air conditioned classrooms, so moving to a public school was something new to me.

My mom convinces me to go for it, and I did. I was tired of arriving home at 7 pm every Monday till Wednesday because of extra lessons given by the school. We arrived at school before 7 am. Not to mention we have to go to school on Saturday.

My mom said, "It's just for three years."

And I waited.
And now three years had passed, and I've graduated from senior high school.

Looking back... I believe high school will be one of the best moments in our life.

Right now I'm wondering if I can rewind the time.. I still can't believe the fact that I'm not a high school student anymore. That I cannot be in a classroom with my classmates anymore. I'm not obliged to wear uniforms anymore.

Whenever I open my notebooks, they all bring me back memories.. Those I can't explain with words.

This post is dedicated to #Mystic the one and only social class in SMAN 4 Denpasar's 27th Generation.

To @OliviaLantina @Dewi_Rha @JanePurnama #Tika #Yoana @angVirgina @beliciousef @heyglo @gladyssaystou @Ranni_94 #Amik @viinovitaa @ntandrupadi @uniquelynadia @ayuhosana @restuindra_d @Aldo_Ips @adi_4d8 #Anugrah @milan_diazta #Fariz.

And to our teachers.. Who have been really patient in dealing with us.

I love, I miss, and I adore you people.

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I am...

2011-04-28T02:45:00.001-07:00

Broken. There. 'Nuff said.

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Contradiction, Much?

2011-04-27T19:58:00.001-07:00

The girl that said I looked "so-so" and "fat" posted something contradictory, which claims that ladies should not think that they aren't beautiful.. Shouldn't think that they aren't enough.. And so on. You know, the girl power thing, that every girl is beautiful in their own way, just the way they are.

That, got me ROTFL.

Because what she did earlier, badmouthing me, is a total contradiction to what she posted.

Because in the first place, judging someone from their looks is über shallow, indirectly stating that women are not capable of doing anything and must be rated from only their appearance.

Because... Hell-o?
Who is she? She ain't Megan Fox. She ain't even a local model. Who does she think she is?

Just an example of people who does not think before they say something out loud.

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Why You Must Not Pick On Others

2011-04-26T20:52:00.001-07:00

Because...

Calling someone fake won't make you real,
Calling someone weak won't make you strong,
Calling someone dumb won't make you smart,
Calling someone ugly won't make you beautiful,
Calling someone fat won't make you skinny,

And because calling someone flawed won't make you perfect.

Every insult you make is only hurting yourself, or even make you look like you're jealous. Or worse, people found out that person you loathe is actually better than you. Voilá, your plan has gone backfire.

You know what? There will always be people who are smarter than you, prettier than you, and so on. When you insult others, there will be time when people also pick on you.

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Insecurity

2011-04-26T20:41:00.001-07:00

I've got this insecurity problem which, in my opinion, is pretty severe. I always feel like I'm not good enough at anything. I feel insecure at competitions, fearing that I might lose. I feel that I'm not smart enough at school. And that's just the beginning, I also feel insecure in many, many other things.

For me, insecurity is rather underrated. Most people who are confident will think of it as a small stone in their path. Well, it ain't so for me.

I've been struggling to overcome my insecurity for almost 3 years.. And I think I've made some improvements, but it hasn't fully gone. Even someone I acknowledge as a great public speaker spent one year to get rid of her insecurity.

Now whenever I feel insecure, I'll remind myself that everyone has their own skills and weaknesses, and nobody could ever be perfect. I'm good at being me, and no one else could do a better job in being me. Being a fake won't give you happiness anyway, no one obliged you to be perfect, then why should you?

People who can look past your physical appearance are the ones that know the most.

"Walk in my shoes, and you'll fall at the first step."

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National Exam: Day Three

2011-04-20T02:58:00.001-07:00

English was pretty easy, geography was effin haaaaaaaarrrddddd!!!!!! щ(ºДºщ)

I was unable to answer some of them even though I've spent time reading like, 3 different textbooks.

Still, only one more to go!

Now I'm sitting in front of Kuta Beach, sipping cold coffee.. Heh heh.

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SHS National Exam: Day One

2011-04-18T01:17:00.000-07:00

I'm doing pretty good. A little bit worried about Indonesian literature though.
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Disappointed

2011-04-08T06:24:00.001-07:00

I'm very disappointed in you. Trusted you yet what happened proves otherwise..

Starting to wonder whether being with you is a mistake since the first time?
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2011

2011-01-01T02:36:00.000-08:00

Happy New Year, people!

It's a little bit hard for me to leave 2010 behind, because to me it was such a fun year. 2011, in the other hand, will be a really busy year as I'll be graduating in mid 2011.

Really, the 11th grade is the best year of high school. Or maybe even the best among all 12 years of school. It is when we're all 16-17 years old, mature enough, had no final exams to face, and no university admissions to take care of.

Well my 11th grade was filled with debate competitions.. Still, I went there with friends, so it was double the fun. Nothing can beat going in a trip to another city with people your age, then stay at lodgings, debate in the morning, then play cards and laugh like maniacs before discussing matters for the next day.

In 2011, I don't have much time left in high school. University admissions have started even since last year (I used the phrase 'last year' yet 2010 was just yesterday). National exams for senior high school will be held on early April, so I have a mere 3 months to prepare. Memorizing lessons since grade 10 until grade 12 is not an easy thing to do! Not to mention university entrance exams.. Which is, like, 37529 times harder than the National Exam.

And in the upcoming 3 months, I also have to make memories with my high school friends.. Thinking of being away from them makes me sad already. We've been lots of stuffs, we played pranks on friends and teachers, celebrate teacher's birthdays, even got the same punishment for doing things we shouldn't, duh.

I don't think words can do enough justice, I cannot explain 2010 in words. What can I say is that 2010 is a memorable year, and aside from starting a new decade, 2011 will be the end of my high school year yet the start of my university life, in another city.

saat - saat seperti apa yang paling kamu rindukan sekarang?

2010-11-22T06:24:00.001-08:00

Saat-saat dimana saya bisa hang-out bareng temen sekelas, nikmatin masa SMA, dan ikut lomba tentunya.

Ask me anything

is there anyone who currently looks like trying to approach you ??

2010-11-22T06:23:00.001-08:00

I don't think so..

Ask me anything

I Still Remember - Part One

2010-09-09T05:51:00.000-07:00

I still remember how the air feels in Perth. I remember the airport, the way to my place.
I remember how the garage looks like - boxes everywhere, lots of footwear, a green hose in the corner, and stuffs from the Subway shop.
There's a small room in the upper left corner, filled with tools I have no idea how to use.

Then there's my parents' room.
I remember the triangle mark on the brown carpet - my dad accidentally put a hot iron there. There were heaters and air conditioners, on during certain seasons.
I remember the small closet, there were packs of chewing gums on the top rack my dad hid from me, LOL.
I remember how the bathroom tiles send chills down my spines, for it is always uber-cold. I remember the hot tap was serious about its name, it IS hot. Loads of beauty products by the shower, and a huge mirror on the wall.

Then there was my room. Small, filled with tables and Barbie play sets. Textbooks were stacked on my pink square table, a world map underneath.

The dining room was quite spacious. Our dining table was white.
I remember how I cleaned both the dining and kitchen table when they were dirty, or when I helped my mom to cook. Sometimes my mom washed the dishes, sometimes I did.
I remember the scent of the kitchen cupboard - very, very fragrant. There were lots of spices, pepper, salt, sugar, ginger, cinnamon, coriander, oils, et cetera. Huge bags of nice Kettle chips were stored on the lower rack.

Our refrigerator was rather small, we broke a rack because we put so many stuff on it. It's filled with the usual things, yogurt, juice, eggs and other dairy products, greens, fruits, and some special seasoning my mother brought from Bali. Terasi a.k.a. shrimp paste, garlic puree, LOL.

The living room was plain, we had no sofa, just a few fishing chairs. Yet the TV was huge, had a VHS player back then.

There was a washing machine and a dryer in the washing room. Obviously, duh. I was pretty scared to go there at night, because it was very quiet back there. There were a few empty rooms beside it, filled with various stuffs we don't need anymore, like my little brother's baby bed. And stuffs my cousin left when he ran from us, duh. :'(
There's a bathtub in the bathroom, which I love very much. It was the perfect excuse to buy various bath salts and bubble baths, LOL.

OK this post is getting lengthy.
I'll write about the outdoors in my second post.

Quite A Change

2010-08-06T05:21:00.000-07:00

Hello! I haven't write in here for around a month! Whoops.
Now I'm officially a 3rd grader! Grade 12! Less than a year and I'll be a MAHAsiswa, which means university student in Indonesian. Weeee!

Now, I don't know whether I should be excited or not. The thing is, in all the past 11 years I felt that it will be long before I reach this point. And now here I am, voila.

My last year in high school has been busy. Somehow I become eager to learn. I read lots of books. I start to look for types of UN-SNMPTN question sheets.

One more important thing: ME AIN'T SLEEPY AFTER EXTRA LESSONS now. So my school has this special program called pemantapan sore. Students are allowed to go home at 1 p.m. but they must get back to school by 3 p.m. and study until 6 p.m. Every Monday-Wednesday. For THREE WHOLE YEARS, minus holidays.

And usually after I got back home at around 7 p.m., I GOT ULTRA-SLEEPY. I'll be moody and freakin' tired. But now I don't! Another weeeee!

I feel like God is preparing me for a big change in my life. He sure knows that I need extra energy.

Tests And More Tests!

2010-06-02T08:25:00.000-07:00

People, I'm back. Back from working on 13 tests, ranging from 40-50 questions per test, except for maths. And tomorrow I'll be fumbling with remedial. Good.

The thing is, we're using a computerized grading system. But they gave us photocopied answer sheets to fill in. That paper went white after I erased it!

Oh well. There's nothing I can do now. The minimum mark for Indonesian Language's 7.50, and I got 7.00. It's 82 for civics, and I scored 80. Darn.

Not that I think so highly of myself, but it didn't even occur to me that the test was THAT hard. I mean, regular tests are worse sometimes.

After all the time I spent on books, this is what I get? I've had a two week holiday, and I spent 13 days working on each subject. I read the whole 100-page civics book.

Is it me or what? Seems like whatever I do in my high school, nothing ends right. However hard I studied, I always get bad marks. Most of the time, the whole class need to do make-up tests.

THAT HARD. So now the question is, am I indeed stupid, or something's wrong with the test? If they keep giving us bad marks so we'll have to make-up for it, are we going to get smarter? All I know, my friends have become this grade-chaser kind of student.

Because all teachers' ever fuss about is about grades, our marks.

In Need Of Money

2010-05-19T09:26:00.000-07:00

Lately, I've been crazy about bags. Leather-y ones.

FYI, I've only got two, one light-brown oversized bag from ZARA, and dark-brown bag from Topshop.

I like Mulberry's Alexa Satchel and Chloé Darla shoulderbag. But.. I'm broke, people. So the only thing I can do is rant about them, LOL.

Chloé Darla

I used to be a very unfashionable person. Gee. At least now I pay more attention!

I really want to try online shopping, wonder how it'll turn out. I'd like to go to Jakarta too. Shop for basic items. I'd avoid branded stuffs too. They drain your pockets, LOL.

I went through my stuffs today, and I did found interesting pieces. For example, an old casual dress in animal print. Two military-inspired items. I needn't shop for these items again.

Are you okay dear? :(

2010-05-18T09:32:00.001-07:00

No, I'm not okay. Thanks for asking, tho'.

Ask me anything

why are you jealous ?

2010-05-18T09:31:00.001-07:00

Because of a freakin' guy.

Ask me anything

Everybody Needs A Good Friend

2010-05-18T08:51:00.001-07:00

Okay, so I met this guy in a competition recently. Let's call him Y. I don't know him, he doesn't know me.. then.

I've been in an on-and-off relationship with a guy, and I'm getting sick of the problems I faced. Well, for me he likes girls in general, if you know what I mean. So, yeah, I was freakin' jealous.

Lately I've been in contact with this guy I met in the comp. Nope, no cupids and butterflies involved here, people.

He's a nice guy to talk to. You know, not the type of guy who doesn't have feelings. He could understand me, I think.

It's just, I really need someone I can talk to. I just hate if this X guy keep saying that he *o**s me but his deeds said otherwise!

You know. If you ain't ready to not look at other gals, just don't even start a relationship. It will just hurt the girl who likes you.

Now you're happy with the phone number, eh? Go on.

I'm grateful for you, Y. At least I can survive this, knowing that other people have been through the same problems.

So, thanks Y. Even though I doubt you've ever been to my blog, I'm still grateful. :)

And for the other guy.. Fak you, fool.

How do you feel right now?

2010-05-18T06:57:00.001-07:00

Jealous.

Ask me anything

Updates!

2010-05-12T09:23:00.000-07:00

Well, seems like I haven't wrote in here for quite a long time! Hmm, now I'm gonna make up for that.

LIFE UPDATE:

Nothing new. My life's good, but there's nothing new, at all.

SCHOOL UPDATE:

Finally I can settle! I mean, my friends' been calling me as "si dispen abadi" or forever-in-dispensation in English, LOL. Now I really gotta catch up, especially if I wanna win my teachers' hearts and get good grades. I hope maths won't be harder next year! I'm also considering extra lessons now.. Should I give it a shot? Or should I wait until January 2011 and join the UN-SNMPTN intensive class? Tell me what you think. :)

DEBATE UPDATE:

I retired from debating. Well, in highschool only. LOL. In the last competition, ALSA-UI 2010, my team ended in the quarter finals, team B ended in octo finals, and I got the 2nd best speaker of the competition! Yay! Finally! Thank God.

I hope the new wave of debaters will be DAMN GREAT. I really want them to succeed. I'll help The Twins to train them.

SHOPS UPDATE:

I found a uber-cheap, new shop near my house! Yay! I mean, why should I spend extra bucks when I can save up? I also got a new bag from TOPSHOP.. 3 jersey dresses from DP.. 3 unbranded tights.. 3 unbranded dresses.. one cardi.. one tee.. one flat sandals.. quite a lot of accessories. Maybe there are some other stuffs but I can't remember them. Still on a quest, though.

I WONT give an update on my love life. LOL.

I'll face the exams starting from Tuesday, 25th May-3rd June 2010!

Wish me luck guys, I've started studying from today, reading economy textbooks, jamming international trade, foreign currencies and balance-of-payments in my head.

A Letter to You

2010-05-06T07:05:00.001-07:00

I wonder why I'm always acting like this. As egoistic as I may seem, you have to realize that it's beyond my control. How I always link you with the past, how I read messages from your crushes, and every other small things.

Then you'd scream to me, you'd ignore me like I'm nothing. Please, that's not what I need. I need you to comfort me, and say that my feelings aren't true. And act that way, too.

For me personally, if I do like someone, I'll wait for him. There's no need for me to play around, because deep down, I know that I will still like that someone.

I'm just wondering if you're saying the truth. What if your feelings are 'fake'? I don't want you to take me for granted. I'm afraid if it turns out that you actually can be in love with ANY girl.

If that's the truth, I'd better leave.

What songs do you listen to lately?

2010-04-30T07:13:00.001-07:00

Ha! I'm trying to find new music lately. I still love Gaga, but I need something new.. Any idea?

Ask me anything

What will u do in the future ?

2010-03-31T02:28:00.003-07:00

Go to university, get married, get a good, hi-paying job?

Ask me anything

Heyy, why don't u put chatbox on ur blog? ~http://rollercoaster-escapism.blogspot.com

2010-03-31T02:28:00.001-07:00

Good idea, but I'm afraid my layout would look too 'full'.. But lemme rethink it :) Thankies!

Ask me anything

What are your take on what's going in the world today? (I have no idea what to ask...)

2010-03-31T02:26:00.001-07:00

Err.. Me have no idea how to answer either.. We need more world peace, less terrorists, more health educatin, women empowerment..(-__-)

Ask me anything

are u okay?

2010-03-27T21:53:00.001-07:00

I'm okay dear, though surely I've got ups-and-downs, I'm fine thanks :)

Ask me anything

10 Ways To Heal A Broken Heart

2010-03-27T05:15:00.001-07:00

I decided to write my own self-help article on how to mend broken hearts. All these 10 points are based on my personal experience. I don't promise anybody to get over and heal A.S.A.P, but I am sure you'll be able to fix everything soon.

Tell me what you guys think on the comment box!

1. Accept that your so-called lover DID break your heart. Do not deny it, just let it flow. You need to accept and let go, than to stay in denial.

2. Never blame yourself for something. If your lover dares to break-up with you, he/she is the one having problems, not you. Again, keep moving on.

3. Almost everybody's heart been broken before. Seems you can't move on.. yet. You know this won't last long.

"Watching you walk out of my life does not make me bitter or cynical about love. But rather makes me realize that if I wanted so much to be with the wrong person how beautiful it will be when the right one comes along."

-Anonymous

4. DO NOT think about your ex. Prohibited. Think about something else, watch a comedy, chat with your friends, anything. Being online is NOT counted as doing something. You might suddenly have the urge to view his virtual profile on Facebook or Twitter - NOT GOOD. Stay away.

"When one door closes, another opens; but we often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door that we do not see the one which has opened for us"

-Alexander Graham Bell

5. DO NOT listen to teary songs. Listen to cheerful stuffs. Religious music is also good, but don't listen to sad songs if you think you're not over your ex.. yet.

6. Now, you think you can move on? Let's start to plan your next move. Get back to your friends, and the society. Enroll in school activities, have fun with your friends. Do not jump straight into another relationship. Take time, remember that nobody should have control over us. Don't let your ex makes you feel sad all the time. You don't really need a lover to be happy.

"Life is like riding a bicycle. To keep your balance you must keep moving"

-Albert Einstein

7. Ready to love again? Now, remember your past mistakes. Choose that guy/girl selectively. Do not base your judgement on looks! Sometimes, the cutest guy ever is also the Jerk of The Year. Look at his/her history, had he/she cheated on someone before? Do you think your parents will accept him/her?

8. Guard your heart and feelings. Don't madly fall in love with this guy. Be rational and have control over yourself, this may prevent you from going through unnecessary heartbreaks. Most fiery relationships quench soon. Remember that love is about having a match that suits you, and how you trust each other, lovey-dovey nicknames and make-outs don't prove anything.

9. Whenever you guys face a problem, sit down and talk. Don't be afraid to say sorry. Don't expect him/her to pour his heart out, just let they know that you're here for them. Cheer them up. When you are in a quarrel, do not make things worse. Use low tones and avoid pointing his/her mistakes. Agree to disagree. Eventually, things will work for both of you.

10. Remember point six, life is all about balance. Even after you're in a new relationship, keep in contact with friends and families. Keep up with your schoolworks. Your lover would be proud if you get high grades at school. Try to please each other. He/she will surely please you back.

Have a happy life! :)

Are u happy with everything in your life, including your love life?

2010-03-12T01:31:00.001-08:00

Almost happy. LOL.

Ask me anything

Use Somebody - Kings of Leon

2010-03-10T07:31:00.000-08:00

This song suited my mood recently. I'm feeling really damn bad for hurting someone, and now I'm losing that person as a friend, too. Darn.

I've been roaming around
Always looking down at all I see
Painted faces fill the places I can't reach

You know that I could use somebody
You know that I could use somebody
Someone like you

And all you know
And how you speak
Countless lovers undercover of the street

You know that I could use somebody
You know that I could use somebody
Someone like you

Off in the night
While you live it up, I'm off to sleep
Waging war to shake the poet and the beat

I hope it's going to make you notice
I hope it's going to make you notice
Someone like me
Someone like me
Someone like me

Go and let it out
Someone like you
Somebody
Someone like you
Somebody
Someone like you
Somebody

I've been roaming around
Always looking down at all I see

Untitled

2010-03-10T07:04:00.000-08:00

I have no idea what title should I put.

Well, I'm going to rant a little bit about my life. Prepare yourselves.

I'm not going to tell you his name, let's just call him X.

Well, I've been pretty close with him. I think I even liked him, he's an interesting person, nice to talk to, great music sense, funny jokes, et cetera.

The problem comes when I had to go and prepare for a competition.

Maybe nobody knows, but my biggest weakness is focus. I can NEVER focus when there are NYLON magazines, Facebook, iPod, and my phone near me.

My coach has given a real lot of attention towards me. My teammates too. And how I hate to disappoint them. So what I have to do, is to live their expectations, and work REAL HARD.

Plus, I don't need 24/7 contact, so I thought it would be okay if I asked him if we could stop contacting each other for a moment. I can then focus, and he can also take a break from thinking of all this, and get back to his schoolworks.

And I don't have the SLIGHTEST IDEA that he suffered A LOT from that.

I dare to SWEAR that I don't plan to leave him or anything.

But things never happen our way.

Now, he's leaving.

I don't know what he's up to, I think a new girl caught his attention, and voila, I'm history.

I have to admit, I won't do that if I knew that he would reacted like this. But again, duh. I never regret anything.

It's just.. I hate to lose him as a friend.

Seems like I'm nothing to him, treating me like something bad.

I hope X reads this. Err, I don't think so. Whatevs.

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2010-03-07T07:19:00.001-08:00

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2010-03-06T07:06:00.001-08:00

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My Average Day

2010-02-25T00:58:00.000-08:00

I am oh-so-very-sick-of-school.

Why schools never accommodate students' needs, but instead we have to follow them? I mean, I've been struggling to finish all my schoolworks, but none of the formulas or histories stayed in my mind. It just went passing by.

I just do it so I can collect it before the deadline.

I wonder what's the use of going to school wholeheartedly? I mean, there will always people who simply don't care, and just copies everything from their textbook.

I wonder if I'm serious now, it would do me any good. If high school has nothing to do with my future, it's better I have fun now. Lol.

I got home with nothing in my head!

I'm Back!

2010-02-23T06:01:00.000-08:00

Well, hello guys!

I'm back from Malang, and we brought home the 1st Runner-Up trophy!

No yay.

Why? Because seriously, we could do better than that. But what we've asked God in our prayers was for the best to happen, and if this is the best for us, so be it.

And I've got tests to catch up. A make-up test for Math, a History and Accounting test tomorrow. And Economy. DUH.

At least it's easier than the students in Science class. They've got Chemistry, Maths, etc. Maths for Science is NOT easy.

I'm feeling sorry that I didn't buy enough stuffs at Malang. I know stuffs over there aren't as much as Jakarta's, but still, it's great to see a change.

Hope I had bought some clothes and bags there! :(

Today I did nothing, awaken at 11.30 a.m. this morning, ate breakfast and took a nap until 3.30 p.m. And until now I've been reading Maryamah Karpov from Kelvin and downloading Angels & Airwaves' new album titled LOVE.

Sadly, I gotta go to school tomorrow. Big duh. I want more holidays..

Love 'Em All!

2010-02-09T06:15:00.000-08:00

Here's a list of my favorite man of all times. Kalau mereka sampai melamar saya, saya pasti pingsan tanpa sempat bilang iya.

1. Vin Diesel

M-A-C-H-O. What can I say?

2. Daniel Henney

I just LOVE his features.

3. Hugh Jackman in X-Men: Wolverine

Minus the knives, please.

My Focus Is You

2010-02-08T06:50:00.000-08:00

Why oh why it is really darn hard to focus?

I have an upcoming important thing, yet here I am, stuck on a photography site and writing on my blog. I'm opening my essay in another window, yet I seldom open it.

Duh.

You know what? My focus is on you. You've filled my life for almost seventeen months, and you're going to leave in two months.
Do you know? Lately I'm starting to treasure every second we spend together.

I kinda miss you, although I never tell you that.

Relationship

2010-01-20T21:59:00.000-08:00

I wonder why people make a big fuss over relationships. I mean, I never had problems, and I never bother being single. I don't hate lovey-dopey songs on the radio, but I DO hate songs about heartbreaks.

Relationships should not be a hitch in life. It should compliment our life, brighten our days. But if he or she is gone, let it be. Don't mourn, don't cry. Because right now, our goal is not to have an everlasting relationship, duh.

See, many friends of mine showed up at school with an oh-so-sad face, red eyes, and everything. Yet they don't know that there are sooooo many people in this world, who could be her boyfriend!

Well, maybe I could write like this because I've never been heartbroken for more than a day, LOL.

I've got a boyfriend now, and we've been together for more than a year. We both took our time, and here we are. (Maybe it's because me ain't like ordinary girls too. *chuckle* )

Is this a relationship? No, it's just a complicated friendship bond.

Don't Be Too-Yourself

2010-01-20T21:57:00.000-08:00

I often hear people say 'be yourself'. Never try to look like someone you don't. Never be fake, just show them the real 'you'.

It's true that we shouldn't pretend to be somebody. But once we've been too far in 'being ourselves', people will dictate us.

They would likely tell us to introspect. Fix our bad habits. Because in the society, we gotta be PERFECT. No flaws at all.

But then again, is that the real 'me'?

As far as I know, 'me' has got both positive and negative habits. 'Me' could be good at school. 'Me' could be a super-annoying girlfriend. 'Me' could be a cool friend to hang out with. 'Me' could be anything.

So, what are we supposed to do? Be ourselves, along with the bad habits, or just be what they want?

In the end, I've came up with a concept. Do not be too-yourself.

Bosan!

2010-01-19T20:30:00.000-08:00

Saya sedang mengalami kebosanan total dirumah. Seminggu siswa kelas 3 ujian try out, seminggu pula kami libur.

Rencana jalan-jalan sekelas perdana kami, yang harusnya dilaksanakan kemarin, jadi gagal lantaran ada latihan drama pagelaran teater suatu sekolah.

Huh!

Saya ingin nonton bioskop ramai-ramai, makan fro-yo, shopping for accessories, lalu cabut ke mall pinggir pantai, ng-Inul Vizta. Makan, foto-foto.

Dan semua itu GAGAL!

And here I am, at home, online.

Ngeliat foto-foto cakep jepretan entah-siapa.. Ngeliat koleksi baju butik-butik terkenal di US.. dan blogging pastinya.

Sebenarnya saya ada tugas sih, Bahasa Bali dan Akuntansi.. tapi berhubung saya nggak bisa baca aksara Bali, jadi nggak kelar tugasnya.

Akuntansi, sedang sampai di topik ayat penyesuaian yang ampun rumitnya. Kalau sudah mengerti ya tak apa, tapi bahasanya itu lho.

Math? Don't even ask. I have no idea how my teacher thinks of us, progressing as fast as this. I mean, c'mon, slow down a bit. Give us more excercises, don't just leave us alone in the dark.

Saya lagi gila jalan-jalan. Katanya awal Februari libur lagi? Hope so.

Hello?

2010-01-19T20:07:00.000-08:00

Little Bambi

2010-01-19T07:33:00.000-08:00

Hello, Cutie!

2010-01-19T06:55:00.000-08:00

Lady Gaga

2010-01-18T02:42:00.000-08:00

Whoops! Scary news.

Lady Gaga's actually an occult!

That finally explains her strange outfits and lyrics..

Not that I hate her though.

But Taylor Swift, Rihanna, and Beyonce too?

This's way too much. Why can't famous artists be angelic?

Apart from her beliefs, I still think their music are great.

For Lady Gaga's story, click here.

For Taylor Swift and Beyonce's story, click here.

You can search other informations about Rihanna there.

Roses

2010-01-15T07:48:00.001-08:00

I always fell in love with roses in this colour. Makes me feel vintage-y and flowery.

Where can I find a piece with this print on?

Love This

2010-01-15T07:21:00.000-08:00

I was browsing the web, and then I stumbled upon this cute dress. Oh dear, why my parents won't lend me their ATM cards?

Saya Beruntung.

2010-01-14T09:20:00.000-08:00

Saya belum pernah merasakan tes masuk sekolah negeri, but here I am. A student of SMAN 4 Denpasar.

Banyak yang mendambakan masuk sekolah negeri favorit, akan tetapi, I get in here effortlessly.

Saya beruntung bisa masuk SMA favorit di Bali ini. Meskipun terkadang gelombang menerjang, toh sekolah saya sudah pernah melewati puluhan banjir. *Apa hubungannya?*

Nah, I'm not lucky. God wants me to be here.

I love You, God.

Do Somethin'

2010-01-11T07:14:00.000-08:00

When I sat down on my comfy black office chair last Sunday, I thought about anxiety. You know, about being anxious before you something. Being anxious about doing it bad, not to good, or not doing it the right way. You simply worry too much.

And proudly speaking, I declare myself a sufferer of anxiety.

Ack. Well yes, every time I'm going to take an action, I would worry about the outcome. I worry about how to fix it, I worry how to do it better in the future.

I simply worry!

Until it gets on my friends' nerves.

And then I realize, that when we keep worrying, we actually forgot what we should do in the first palce: The Task.

Yes, when you always worry about your marks, then you'd probably fail to recall that you should study harder. When you worry about your image, you'd be likely to forget to do something that will really help your image.

In the end, what I'm trying to say is not to let your anxiety rule you. Don't let it drag you away from stuffs you're supposed do to be a better person.

Country singer Taylor Swift has the right opinion about this. Being fearless, or anxiety-less, or anything you want, does not mean that you are unafraid of everything.

Being fearless means you have fears, but you jump over it.

You do what you are supposed to do.

And yeah, that's what I'm going to do. Jump over it.

Soulmate

2009-12-18T05:38:00.000-08:00

I’m wondering. Where is my soulmate?

Saya membayangkan, setelah lulus sekolah dan mulai di dunia kerja, saya akan memulai sebuah journey untuk mencari soulmate saya. Dari seluruh lelaki di dunia ini, saya akan memilah satu – persatu, sampai akhirnya bertemu pasangan saya.

Pinggirkan yang gay, karena saya straight.

Kemudian dicari lagi yang umurnya pas sama saya.

Dicari yang bibitnya sama.
Bebetnya juga.
Bobotnya apalagi.

Kemudian – kalau bisa sih – dicari yang perawakannya pas sama saya. Lalu, dicarilah yang seprinsip serta keyakinannya sama. Kemudian, terakhir, dari lelaki – lelaki yang masih tersisa, akan saya cari seseorang yang memang cocok sama saya. Seseorang yang memang mau hidup sama saya dengan sukarela. Yang rela tinggal sama saya yang music – freak, books – freak, dan shopping - freak ini. Seseorang yang mau menerima saya apa adanya, mau jelek, mau cakep.

Dan setelah menetapkan syarat - syarat diatas, I’m still wondering... Will I find him?

Belum lagi saya juga harus lulus syarat - syarat si dia.

Tugas HTML Sign-Up Yahoo

2009-12-04T05:24:00.000-08:00

Tugas HTML Sign-Up Yahoo

Nama : Agatha Kharisma
Kelas: XI-IPS
No. : 02

Download

HTML

2009-11-21T23:12:00.000-08:00

HyperText Markup Language (HTML) adalah sebuah bahasa markup yang digunakan untuk membuat sebuah halaman web dan menampilkan berbagai informasi di dalam sebuah browser Internet. Bermula dari sebuah bahasa yang sebelumnya banyak digunakan di dunia penerbitan dan percetakan yang disebut dengan SGML(Standard Generalized Markup Language), HTML adalah sebuah standar yang digunakan secara luas untuk menampilkan halaman web. HTML saat ini merupakan standar internet yang didefinisikan dan dikendalikan penggunaannya oleh World Wide Web Consortium (W3C).

Versi terakhir dari HTML adalah HTML 4.01, meskipun saat ini telah berkembang XHTML yang merupakan pengembangan dari HTML.

Pendahuluan

HTML berupa kode-kode tag yang menginstruksikan browser untuk menghasilkan tampilan sesuai dengan yang diinginkan. Sebuah file yang merupakan file HTML dapat dibuka dengan menggunakan browser web. HTML juga dapat dikenali oleh aplikasi pembuka email ataupun dari PDA dan program lain yang memiliki kemampuan browser.

HTML dokumen tersebut mirip dengan dokumen teks biasa, hanya dalam dokumen ini sebuah teks bisa memuat instruksi yang ditandai dengan kode atau lebih dikenal dengan TAG tertentu. Sebagai contoh jika ingin membuat teks ditampilkan menjadi tebal seperti: TAMPIL TEBAL, maka penulisannya dilakukan dengan cara: TAMPIL TEBAL. Tanda digunakan untuk mengaktifkan instruksi cetak tebal, diikuti oleh teks yang ingin ditebalkan, dan diakhiri dengan tanda untuk menonaktifkan cetak tebal tersebut.

The Depths Of Night

2009-10-16T10:43:00.000-07:00

I know the title is definitely poetic, but it's not. I'm not writing a poem.
In fact, I'm trying to figure out myself, what happens at night. Scary? No, not with my laptop and TV on. Plus my mom and brother are both awake. Yes, I know it's 1.52 a.m. but that won't stop us from staying up so late.

What am I doing now? Writing this post, while downloading an album by The Academy Is... . It is like, 41.4 MB in size.
I'm currently seeing, not watching, a soccer match. Between Brazil and Ghana. Well, I assume this is the qualification match for World Cup 2010.

Somehow, I'm not sleepy. I've been thinking about my boyfriend today. This day marks our 14th month in relationship. It's the longest I've been in, and I'm sure it's the same for him.
Well, I don't know what to say. He is sweet, caring and loyal. He's helpful in many occassions. He is fun to be with. He is witty, he is smart. He takes care of me. He's not miserly. Often too generous. Never leaves me. Gladly waits for me.

It is me who often sulk. It is me who often don't listen to him. It is me who often neglect him. It is me who often made him wait.

And here are we, still together. I often wonder what would made him stay by my side this long.

I'm hungry. LOL. People said that happens because you're staying up late. Well, my brain is not tired, why should I rest it and hamper its work? LOL again.

I really hope my favourite music blogger will soon post again. Really, I'm tired wandering from site to site like this, only to discover new music. I think we have the same taste in music, that's why I needn't worry when downloading from his site.

So, these are the things I think of tonight.. or morning? I don't care.
Who knows about tommorow?

Libur Lagi

2009-10-10T05:02:00.000-07:00

I might sound a little bit unthankful, but another two weeks of holiday means I might gain weight, and when the holiday finally comes to an end I might need to drag myself to go back to school and study.

I'm going to think of plans to spend my twelve-day holiday.

My Sundays and Fridays are booked for the radio training.
I might spend the rest of those days by.. reading a book? No, I've finished reading Brisingr. Nice ending, by the way!
I'd love to surf more of the net and discover new music, as my favourite music blogger stopped writing, but I have no idea where to look for song titles. I don't really trust recording companies, of course they will say every song they produce is good.
I cannot pass those days by sleeping, obviously. Not if I want to keep my weight.
I give up! I really don't know. Let us hope I'll come up with a plan.

I really liked my new friends at the radio. Well, at Tax Goes To School, when I wanted to go home and looked for Desak to say goodbye, I found her sitting with Ivonne and few other girls in polo-shirts and jeans. I called them, but then a girl gestured me to come over. She told me to fill up a form. After doing so, I said goodbye, but to my surprise she took a picture of me and taped me reading a script. Kinda embarassing, but I followed her instructions and got home afterwards.

The next month, I was contacted and told that they would like me to come to the office.
The first time I went there I felt a bit strange, entering a community circle I didn't even know. They do as they want.

My first training started on Sunday 4th, so tomorrow will be my third training session. Oh yeah, turned out the girl who had me fill out the form is Anjani, my mentor now. Tee-hee.

But I did not like few of the boys, they behaved towards me the way I don't like. They are.. strange, if that explains the real situation. My friends had advised me not to go near him, and I plan to obey that, unless he changed or whatsoever.

Gotta go, ciao!

Reaksi Cepat

2009-09-18T21:13:00.000-07:00

Pagi yang cerah nan sejuk, saya duduk bersantai menanti bunyi bel masuk.
Menyilangkan kaki, sembari menoleh ke teman di belakang, lalu--
GRUDUK-GRUDUK-GRUDUK!

What?! Bangku di kelas dideret mepet, horizontal sampai ke belakang. Saya duduk di tengah.
Dengan susah payah keluar, lari ke parkir kelas XI.

Baru tarik napas-elus dada bersama crew Mystic yang lainnya, eh, gempa lagi!
GRUDUK-GRUDUK-GRUDUK-GRUDUK!

Makin keras.
Dengan agak was-was ikut lari ke depan, melewati atap-atap lainnya. Di depan, setiap kelas buat lingkaran, lalu.. main.

Reaksi Desak: *Lempar sapu* . . . !
Reaksi Kevin: Eh, kok gini ya..
Reaksi Ayu: *Dengan panik berusaha melewati ratusan motor di tempat parkir*
Reaksi cewek-cewek XI A 1: Kyaa! Waaa! Waa!
Reaksi cowok-cowok XI A 1: . . . Hahahaha . .
Reaksi cewek-cewek XI A 3: Eh gempa, gempa..
Reaksi cowok-cowok XI A 3: *Main keyboard* Nya nya na na la la..
Reaksi Kelvin: *Main laptop* . . . . ! *Ikut kabur*
Reaksi Fajar: *Kabur ke luar, masuk lagi* Eh, laptopku, laptopku..

Demikianlah yang terjadi. Setelah itu? Makan, main.. Dan khusus Mystic, kami dugem. Pakai speaker Mbak Rante, jadilah semua nge-dance nggak keruan.

Kehebohan ditambah first graders yang buat gempa palsu, awas kalian ye!

Efek samping:

Genteng dekat XI A 3 jatuh.
Anggi jatuh.
Lemari rumahnya Piki terbelah dua.
Pot-nya Rante jatuh semua.
Lantai rumah Kania retak.
Mobil di rumah goyang semua.
Genteng bangunan PLN rusak.
Pak Kepsek keluar dari ruang kerjanya. (Wow!)
Foursma nggak ada pelajaran. (Yay!)

Sekedar info, gempa 6.4 Richter Scale itu berpusat di Nusa Dua, Bali yang merpakan daerah... pantai.

A Broken Hope

2009-09-17T10:07:00.000-07:00

I hate this.

Reading my teammate’s blog, that surge of pain came over me again. Remembering those irritating moments when the result of the quarters were published. Remembering the faces of those damned ajudicators. Recalling silly theories they’ve made up to reproach us. Cursing on affirmative action.

Well, those moments were painful. Our chances to ISDC was gone in a blink of an eye. Just because of affirmative action. I don’t know whether we can call this an affirmative action, but whatevs. Oh, and also unqualified judges.

Imagine. They accused you of changing the motion, but in fact it were those people who had hearing problems! They let a team whose third speaker CLEARLY presented the audience with a NEW ARGUMENT to win. That’s like, a violation of the basic debate rules!

At that time, I could not believe that I can’t go to ISDC. It’s my dream as the 4th generation of EADS – 4. I cried, how could such an important duty – to choose a team capable of representing Bali – be assigned to teachers who don’t even know the rules of debating? They aren’t even coaches.

Being an ajudicator is indeed their pride, but not their area of expertise.

Blinded with pride, they approved the offer, and called themselves ajudicator, with arrogance.

My mate were very disappointed. As a second grader, we’ve got only one chance. Which we failed. So we have no more now.

What I hate the most, is how the winner reacts to this situation. They think they won because they’re good. They’re great. They won because my team is bad. Finally God is being fair to them. They think they deserved to win.

Unfortunately, that’s only in their minds. Not the truth. Ha!

I do wish they could taste a real debate in ISDC. Being crushed down by other teams. No one to depend on. Doing first layer analyses. Coming home to Bali, faint-heartedly, with no awards.

Then the committee can come and kneel before us, pleading us to train and provide Bali with (much) better debaters.

Me, I’m still enthusiastic. This is my life, I’m too deep within. Even though I’m not that good (yet), I believe I’ve got passion for this. And this is not the end for me, if every incident is never a coincidence, then this must happen for a reason:

We’re not ready yet;
Something better awaits us.

That’s it. They’ve won an empty cup.

Unspeakable Love

2009-08-16T07:01:00.000-07:00

As I see you day by day

My mind wanders

I wish I am free

As free as a bird

With no lover, yet happy

Remembering moments we'd spent together

Remembering those laughs we had

Makes me wanna turn back time

And just be with you

Again and again

I denied the feeling

Yet I keep risking myself

Being that close to you

And guess what

I've lost

All this time

I cannot confess

For my heart is chained

My lips sealed

And my fingers tied behind

Now my heart aches

Still passing by you

Everyday

No choices I've had

Still I can't confess this

Unspeakable love

What Is School, Actually?

2009-08-06T04:42:00.000-07:00

Hm.. my friend mentioned in his Facebook status that school seems just like a requirement, what most people expects us to be doing. But we’re simply not interested in it (anymore).

He's got a point there.. Some students want something exciting in their school life. I’m sure those guys in the Student Government doesn’t need more activities, though.

For me, I’m happy to go to school because I can meet my boyfriend (cliché!) and debate. Sometimes I’m excited that I’m going to learn something new.

But as I think of it.. I don’t think those reasons are valid. Because the term “school” has lost its educational means. I SHOULDN’T use school to date – and – debate. Then, aren’t some people tired of studying or tired of a teacher? Then what are we going to school for?

Meeting our friends?

Sleeping?

Gossiping?

Borrowing books from the library?

Societal pressure?

See. No doubt, some of you must’ve found the fun – and – exciting part of school and that is indeed good. So your parent’s money won’t go to waste. And while some people are still figuring out the reason why we are expected to go to school, you can learn as much as you can, to satisfy your brains.

I spent electricity when I’m making presentation slides. I spent time reading books.

Does that makes me happy?

Maybe, if I get a good mark. Tapi esensi sekolah sudah hilang. Nggak ada lagi yang benar – benar bersemangat ke sekolah. Rasanya nada, zero, zilch. Nggak adakah sesuatu yang membuat kita eager to learn? Atau memang nggak ada hal semacam itu sejak awal?

It’s hard to say. As I said before, we simply lost interest. And our quest to look for the answer will not stop, even in my late years of school.

A Second Grader Now

2009-07-24T20:37:00.000-07:00

My first week of 11th grade is going to end. So far, so good. I've made a group on Facebook. We've already been thinking about the name. We've been collecting money to buy some charts and other things.
We've gotten enough papers and slides to write. We've got books to read. We've written five sheets of Maths note.
My organization is preparing to recruit new members. We're still planning something to come up with..
In the EC, well, we had given those new students an (for me) abstract background of the club's activity.. Well when I was a first grader I'd like to be the head.. But, oh well. Can't really say it here.
Actually, the stupid thing was that we didn't introduce ourselves to them. I realized (too late, as usual) that it is a fatality. Ha!

I'm in the middle of a class now. But the teacher isn't even here, so who cares?

I've got a Geography presentation to create, also Economy. An English paper to write. A Balinese-Lit. homework. We have to sing a Balinese song, can you imagine that?

Well, gotta go. See you.

My Shopping Diary

2009-07-20T00:59:00.000-07:00

Hello! :)
I got home from Jakarta yesterday, and I am very happy. Why?
Because I shopped. A lot. Enough for a year. Um, maybe half.

Here's my schedule..

Thursday, 9 July 2009, departed from Bali to Surabaya by car. Arrived there at 7 p.m. and went to Tunjungan Plaza. Got a tee from ZARA.
Extended my stay, I checked out TP again.
Saturday, 11 July 2009, departed from the hotel, planned to stay at Semarang for the night, but due to certain circumstances stayed at Pati instead.
Sunday, departed from Pati, went through a LONG journey, caught a sore throat and a cold on the way. Arrived at Monday, 3 a.m. at my house in Tangerang.
Monday is when the fun started. Went to PIM from 3 until 9.30 p.m. and bought 2 pieces of clothing at ZARA.
Tuesday, went to SenCi and got another 2 piece, also from ZARA.
Wednesday, went to Mangga Dua. Got.. um, I dunno. Two dresses, a cardigan, two tees, two shawls. Et cetera.
Thursday, went to the TRADE MINISTRY BUILDING. Ha! No one got such an holiday like me. I tasted some food at the canteen. At night, I went to Mall Kelapa Gading. Bought nothing, except a delicious ice cream :)
Friday, stayed at home. Was awaken by the news, a bomb exploded at Mega-Kuningan. I read almost a hundred pages of Eclipse.
Saturday, went to Ancol, helping my dad. Ordered a pair of hand-drawn shoes. In the evening we rode the Gondola, then we went to Mall of Indonesia, which is EMPTY. I mean, no Topshop or ZARA, only some surf shops and Centro. But I rode two rides.
Sunday, I went to the airport, arrived at 12. Waited since 12.45 in front of the gate, yet no announcement until 2 p.m. Turned out the plane has left, my mum complained, yet the guy behind this insisted that they had announced. Bought another tickets for 4.25 p.m., delayed until 6 p.m. Arrived at Bali at 9.30 p.m. then searched for our luggages. Arrived home at 10 p.m.

The plane incident was the most fuckin' annoying thing. Did they mean that we were deaf? Man, that was insane. I waited in front of the gate sign. And they delayed it for like, hours! Thank God in Bali I could find my stuffs..

I Just Watched A Movie That Gave Me A Few Lesson

2009-06-28T06:52:00.000-07:00

Well guys, this afternoon me and a couple of friends (not friends, actually.. They're all my seniors!) went to Galeria 21 and watched Transformers II : Revenge of The Fallen. Thanks to Dennys and Garlan who were willing to queue, we scored four tickets.
My post title here might've been too OTT, but it is true.

DO NOT TRUST GIRLS WHO SEEM-TO-LIKE-YOU IMMIDIATELY. Why? Karena mungkin ketika gadis itu berhasil meng-corner anda, bisa saja gadis itu anggota Decepticon yang dapat mengeluarkan ekor besi tajam dan punya lidah yang panjangnya 5 kaki. Jadi bukannya senang, anda malah bisa mati.
MANY COUNTRIES SHOULD START TO SAVE MORE MONEY. Why? Supaya ketika nanti ada ambush dari cowards (Megatron and friends) yang kabur itu, Tokyo, Shanghai atau New York punya dana untuk memperbaiki infrastruktur. Belum lagi kekacauan akibat aksi Spiderman, Superman, Batman, Iron Man.. Nanti kita tinggal di mana?
DON'T BE IMPRESSED BY A LADIES' MAN. Why? Karena in this case, si Leo memang hot, tanned, and athletic. Tapi begitu ketemu those robots, dia most likely akan takut! Mungkin ada juga yang pernah jalan di Smithsonian, with his pants down.
SO-CALLED LEADERS SHOULD TRAIN MORE. Why? Karena mungkin saja orang itu nggak bisa pakai parachute, jadi kalau ada bahaya dan mereka terpaksa diterjunkan dari pesawat, orang tersebut akan mengalami sport jantung yang cukup berat.
DON'T WAIT TOO LONG, YOU MIGHT LOSE THE PERFECT MOMENT. Masa Mikaela perlu Optimus Prime mati - The Fallen bangkit - Sam manjatin piramida - Sam diserempet missile, just to say that she loves him? I'm sure you get my point here.

Anyway, that's all.
I had so much fun today, despite the serious-ness of this movie, it manages to make me laugh out loud. The jokes did made the whole audience ROFL. Dan rupanya banyak sekali yang berkeliaran di SS ya? Haha.

Kegiatan Saya Sehari - hari

2009-06-27T03:28:00.000-07:00

Berguling di kasur, menikmati dinginnya AC. Dengan setengah terpaksa bangun, melihat jarum jam yang menunjukkan pukul dua belas siang.
Terseok - seok keluar kamar, mengambil air dan secangkir yoghurt, lalu duduk menghadap meja.
Membaca buku sambil makan.
Masih membaca buku, diselingi SMS sekali - kali.
Membuka laptop: nulis, buka Facebook atau download lagu. Main game.
Buat kopi, bawa ke meja.
Makan.
Lanjut baca buku.
Mandi, minum teh. Ngobrol sama orang rumah.
Baca lagi. Majalah, koran.
Main laptop.
Nonton TV yang menjelang midnight lumayan bagus tayangannya.
Setelah lewat pukul 2 pagi, gosok gigi.
Tidur, bersiap untuk bangun pukul 12 siang esoknya.

Presidential debate? Hmm.

2009-06-23T22:49:00.000-07:00

Arrogant!

A word said by one presidential candidate, aimed to another candidate of his confidence that we won’t need a second round to elect a president and a vice – president.

Woohoo. Whatevs.

Kemarin, saat menyaksikan debat yang diikuti oleh cawapres dari masing – masing pasangan, sesuatu yang dilontarkan membuat saya marah. Dilontarkan oleh juru bicara, malahan. Bukan oleh salah – satu kandidat.

Jubir Mega – Pro: ... Yah, kalau Pak Boediono kan alirannya neolib(eral)..

Saya: !!! (Nyaris melempar LCD TV Aquos dengan piring).

Saya mengumpat dalam hati. He’s accusing someone of following a certain ideology, without giving adequate back-ups and NO reasoning at all?

And he smiled cunningly when he said it, seemed so sure that the claim is true.

I practically LMAO when I heard that statment. I was enraged, yet after that I laughed.

Sorry, Bu Mega. We HAD you as a president in the past, remember?

Mungkin sebaiknya anda tidak perlu membawa – bawa nama Bapak Soekarno. Just prove that you are like him. Tidak perlu nostalgia dengan mengatakan “ ..dulu kalau saya jadi presiden.. “

Tidak, tidak perlu. Kami kan butuh aksi anda sekalian.

Saya menyayangkan sekali fallacy yang satu ini. Para calon saling attack, atau istilahnya ad hominem. Semua saling menjelekkan satu sama lain. Bitchfight, in a harsh word. No wonder pihak KPU sangat mewanti – wanti kemungkinan ini.

Memangnya bikin pintar? Bikin para pendukung masing – masing calon panas saja. Proposal mereka tak jadi dipertanyakan, tak jadi di revisi bersama lewat perdebatan tersebut.

Rakyat yang nonton tak bisa menentukan proposal yang paling baik. Mungkin mereka bingung dibuatnya.

Saya sih tertawa saja, sembari berharap Tim SBY – Berbudi tak terbawa arus bitchfight ini.

What Should I Do?

2009-06-12T22:10:00.000-07:00

Bum bum be dum bum be dum bum~

Yeah, here I am singing an old song. LOL. Not too old but not brand new anyway.

Saya tak tahu harus bilang apa lagi. Well, nilai saya cukup bagus di sekolah, good. I'm not showing off, really. At least, meningkat lah.

I'm having a really nice drink right now. But what should I do in this one-month holiday?

Seorang teman baru mengeluh kepada saya, mengenai nilai ekstrakulikuler-nya yang drop dari A menjadi B. Sayang, memang. Saya tahu, semenjak SMP dia sangat aktif dalam dunia teater. Sekarang juga.

Saya tak mampu membalas tatkala ia mengirim SMS yang penuh kekecewaan. Mau bilang apa? Admit that I got better mark? Obviously no.
It's just.. all those marks are nothing. Useless!
It would make people work hard to earn good marks, not because he/she loves it.

Well, my friend love what she's doing. Tapi mengapa begini? Sayang sekali. Blood, sweat and tears terbuang percuma.

Well, nggak tau deh harus bilang apa. Hanya seberkas cerita yang terpikir. Belum semua saya tuangkan. Mungkin lain kali?

I've got something for you. Jordin Sparks' Battlefield.

Ruang Kosong

2009-06-10T03:53:00.000-07:00

Aku terdiam.

Bukan tanpa kata, bukan tanpa aktivitas. Hanya saja diriku serasa belum paham. Apa yang tak terduga telah terjadi. Aku benar - benar tak mengerti. Dalam kesunyianku ini, suara televisi masih jelas terdengar, seakan tak hirau dengan kondisiku. Memberitakan pertikaian yang tak ada habisnya, korupsi yang tak ada puasnya.

Aku merasa sepi. Ada sepetak ruang kosong di hati, yang mendadak ditinggalkan penghuninya tanpa izin. Bukan ruang yang signifikan, namun dapat membuatku merasa kehilangan. Meski ditemani segelas iced coffee dan musik, tetap saja diriku tak mau percaya pada realita.

Aku tak tahu apakah harus menyesal. Aku tak tahu apa diriku harus bersyukur. Fifty - fifty, mungkin. Satu hal yang kutahu, aku menyesal berharap.

Ada terlalu banyak perbedaan. Aku sadar, bukan sosok pendamping yang kucari dalammu, namun sosok seorang kakak tempat berbagi. Amat klise, tetapi nyata.

Sayangnya dirimu berpikir hal lain. Tak ayal lagi, aku terseret dalam bayangan itu. Seakan sengaja berlari dan sliding ke arah batu sandungan. Perbuatan seorang bodoh yang dilanda emosi. Sekarang aku terkikik geli mendengarnya.

Andai tak jadi begini, aku mungkin dapat berbicara denganmu seperti biasa. Namun begitu tahu dirimu mengharap yang lain, itu semua membuatku tak bebas. Selama ini mungkin aku salah bersikap, maaf.

Dirimu membuatku lupa akan apa yang aku punya. Kuacuhkan peringatan. Tetapi waktu membuktikan, mereka tak salah. Aku yang salah langkah. Sekali lagi perbuatan orang bodoh dilanda emosi sesaat.

Waktu masih berjalan, televisi masih beriklan, iced coffee-ku mulai hambar seiring cairnya es. Teguk demi teguk kuminum, membuat pakta dengan diriku sendiri, untuk tak asal percaya. Aku punya orang yang kucinta, pikirku, sembari menyayangkan gadis itu.

Bolehkah ku tertawa?

Another Shot of Trouble!

2009-06-05T20:18:00.000-07:00

School days are coming to an end, yet waves of trouble keeps hitting us non-stop. I can’t publish it here, unfortunately. Even though blogs are meant for us to write things we couldn’t say out loud, still.. it’s my friend’s privacy.

It’s just.. sometimes the truth is much more unusual than what we’d imagine. And yes, how imaginative human speculation could be.

Akhirnya saya menemukan solusi masalah penjurusan saya : IPS.

Mungkin dilema yang terdengar aneh bagi penghuni tetap sekolah swasta, akan tetapi keputusan saya sudah tetap, formulir sudah dikumpulkan. Lengkap dengan tanda tangan.

Tak sedikit kawan yang bertanya – tanya, bahkan protes. Menurut mereka, saya mampu di IPA. Saya terbilang punya potensi. Sayang sekali saya memilih yang lain.

Jangan tanya lagi, saya sendiri kaget oleh keputusan ini. Isi kepala saya seolah sudah diprogram untuk menuju IPA sejak dulu. Saya pribadi mempunyai ketertarikan pada sains, dengan segala kompleksitas maupun simpelnya sebuah proses yang terjadi.

Meski pemahaman fisika saya patut ditertawakan, haha.

The thing is, yang membuat saya jadi tak paham fisika, adalah; 1) Sarunya kurikulum IGCSE dan KTSP, yang menyebabkan saya bingung. Maklum Fisika Dinamika yang cukup rumit, hanya diajarkan dalam beberapa kali tatap muka, dan 2) Guru yang tidak komunikatif.

Do I sound like I demand too much? I admit that.

Masalahnya, saya tipe yang suka mendengarkan penjelasan dan take notes from that lecture. Bukan orang yang bisa mengerti lewat tumpukan soal – soal yang menggunung.

Dan menurut saya, itulah, yang kira – kira akan terjadi di IPA.

Andai saya masih di sekolah swasta lama saya, I’m absolutely going there. IPA.
Buku - buku tebal yang mantap, plus guru – guru yang juga dosen.
Also, native English teachers.

Sayangnya, Tuhan berkata lain. Haha. I don’t regret that, Lord. I truly don’t.
Hanya saja saya menyayangkan sistem ini, sekaligus memuji teman – teman yang demikian rajinnya sehingga mampu belajar dalam kondisi ini.

Singkat kata.. karena tak yakin mampu jadi spektakuler di IPA, saya memilih IPS.

I know, there's a person that might get to UI without much struggle. I know, maybe – hope not – someone gonna get there because of literature. Still, I wish and I want to get in. I’m gonna work hard, at school and in debate.

Man, I really should bring my newspapers to school.. Ternyata tidak ada pelajaran. Kami sudah memasuki masa jeda. Lalala.

Seminggu lagi saja, gelar calon murid sebelas IPS akan saya sandang. Sedih, berpisah dengan teman – teman kelas sepuluh. Senang, bertemu dengan calon teman baru. Excited, menghadapi tantangan baru.
Terutama dalam.. um, akuntansi.

Sejujurnya, saya ditawari masuk kelas SI. Sesuatu yang, dulu, saya inginkan. Karena saya cinta bahasa inggris, haha.

Sekarang pun saya tetap ingin, dengan perkecualian: SI IPS. Kata guru saya, di Palembang ada. We learn economics there.

Yah, no comment lah. Saya sudah menyiapkan buku yang diperlukan. Baju Surfive sudah siap. Mental cukup, kadar fun sudah overload, hehe.

Welcoming the next school term,

Agatha

*Kevin, I don’t mean to copy you. LOL*

Presidential Candidates Discussions

2009-05-20T21:46:00.000-07:00

The three presidential and vice presidential candidates will lay out their economic programs before the Indonesian Chamber of Commerce and Industry (Kadin) beginning Monday.

Chairman of Kadin's dialogue organizing committee Anindya Bakrie said Sunday that only two pairs of candidates -- incumbent Susilo Bambang Yudhoyono and his running mate Boediono and Jusuf Kalla and Wirantohad -- had confirmed their attendance.

Kadin, Anindya said, was still waiting for confirmation from Megawati Soekarnoputri and Prabowo Soebianto.

Anindya said that Kadin would ask the candidates to address three economic issues: how to improve Indonesia's competitiveness, how to reform the bureaucracy and how to establish better partnerships with all stakeholders.

"We hope they will not only speak at the discourse level, but at the implementation level, what they will do if they are elected as president and vice president," Anindya said.

About 350 Kadin members and entrepreneurs, who come from various provinces, will join the two-day dialog with the presidential and vice presidential candidates.

The dialog will be held on Monday and Wednesday. It will be broadcast at prime time on TV One, which is controlled in part by the Bakrie family, on Wednesday, Thursday and Friday.

Recently, they discussed on how Indonesia should only trade by fair trade, not free trade. It is true, as we are a 3rd world country. Developing countries are often disadvantaged by free trade policies. Our assets are taken in an enormous amount, yet we receive small payments compared to what has been taken.

Also there are environmental and social impacts.

Hmm.. makes me remember that classic debate on how global free trade harms 3rd world countries..

Here Comes The Vampire Wave...

2009-05-06T20:49:00.000-07:00

No one doesn't know about the Twilight Saga.. A series of novel telling us about a love story between a vampire and a human girl, Bella.
Then Edward's immortality separated them, et cetera, et cetera.

One thing that bothers me, though, is that other writers start writing their own story on vampires.
They don't plagiate, of course, but they wrote a story on vampires and humans and how they lived together.

I am a devoted visitor - and customer - of Periplus Bookstore.
I got my shot of newspapers and novels and magazines there.

One day I was wondering around the store.. Looking at new novels, wince at their prices, then put them back on the shelf.. Reading magazines (for free) .. lalala.

Then, bang!
My eyes spotted a novel on vampire, with a black-and-purple goth cover.
I picked it up, reading the summary on the back cover, then put it down with a sigh, thinking, " Another vampire.. again. "

There's also Vampire Beach, Vampire Academy.
Both, are series of novels on vampire.

* speaking of vampires.. listen to the band Vampire Academy! *

Those books tells about vampires and humans living in the same world.. How they coincidentally met each other.
Those authors should thank Stephenie Meyer for giving them the main idea for their novels, though.

It was very creative of Stephenie Meyer to come up with a really fresh idea like this. She contributed a lot to the Literature World.. also to the book publishers getting revenues from the sales. LOL :D

It was also very good of other writers who realize the vampire wave she has created, noticing an opportunity to earn some more money by writing vampire novels.

But as a reader, I don't like this.
I bought fictions as refreshments, and maybe to add up my vocabulary or to improve my writing skill.

Yet how do you think I would feel, going to the bookstore with a bunch of hope,
only to find out that there are ten versions of vampire stories,
maybe five on princesses,
a few on detectives,
and hundreds of mythical creatures..?

I know it is hard to come up with new ideas. But still, writers ought to be creative.

Everyone could be a writer if someone gave them the main idea, then let them improvise.

Pressurized

2009-05-06T00:42:00.000-07:00

Oh. My. God.

Who did they think they are?
How could they treated us like that?
I am, definitely so sick of this.

They took away 5k away from me every month, only to give me back NOTHING, in spite of a few yells now and then?

My dream when I joined was to learn acting.
Now it's all ruined, thanks to all those elites.
* Well, elites aren't the exact word to describe them, but.. *

* Oi, Kevin, I like your way of quoting, by the way ^^ *

Definitely gonna kick their asses.

Now.. My friends are on a trip to Java right now. Few who didn't joined were given a mandate * ew! * to work at kelurahan.
You know what? They didn't gave me any letter.. I showed up there on Monday, and they simply reject me. Bang!

Then I went all the way to school.. And no one in charge was there!
Somehow, the 11th and 12th grader got to school only to * surprisingly to them, as well * attend a flag ceremony commemorating Hardiknas.

Which was actually on Saturday.

I've met my class advisor, and even she didn't know.
Oh well. I guess I just have to spend a week learning at home..

Debate :
I'm still learning debate now. Got two almanacs now.
Way to go! :D

There might be some re-arrangement to my debate team, I think.. Well, now I can't bother about who I wanna work with, I can't choose someone because they're my friends..
I have to be able to work with anyone -- ANY SINGLE PERSON THAT IS LOGICAL AND WORTH IT.

I said that, because I realize that our goal now IS NOT to HAVE FUN, yes debate is fun, yet OUR GOAL is to get to ISDC..

We have to be a grown up, and adaptate easily.
When we have grown, I don't think we can choose our - for example - business partners.
Your goal won't be to "have fun with friends" , it would be to benefit both sides.

Let's get it on..

Another Problem With Malaysia!

2009-04-23T06:40:00.000-07:00

Guys.. I bet we all know about the abduction of a 17-year old Indonesian model, Manohara Odelia Pinot by Muhammad Fakhry, the son of Raja of Kelantan.

Oh-My-God.
Why Malaysia have to mess up with Indonesia a lot?
They used to claim Reog Ponorogo as their traditional art.. now this.
This is a shame for Malaysia, and even for the Royal Family!

Well, some said Manohara's mother, Daisy Fajarina, let her get married because of the Prince's damn wealthy..

But you know what?
Actually, the Prince had raped Manohara on December 2007, New Year's Eve. The marriage took place in August 2008.

The marriage, in the opinion of The Mighty Pen, was forced upon Muhammad Fakhry, who earlier consented only to an informal marriage called ‘nikah siri’.
This is the standard practice of Muslim men wanting to marry more than one wife. Or you may call it a ‘secret marriage’.

The Prince had sex with an underage girl.. She's not even his wife at that moment..
Then he abused her so bad. He cuts her chest (or breast?) with a razor blade.

Why did this had to happen? It's another shame for Indonesian women.. Some already experienced household violence, now a SEVENTEEN YEAR OLD BEAUTIFUL MODEL had to experience it too?

She was born in 1992. Just a year older then me.
She should be enjoying her teenage life, not serving a man's sexual desire..
Indonesian women should at least had a job or a degree before they even think about marriage.

Manohara.. you are pretty, young yet famous. You still had chances. Even though I can't blame anyone for this.. I am sure that Malaysia, the Prime Minister and the Royal Family is now grilled by Indonesian media.

This is a warning for unmarried Indonesian women all around Nusantara.. Don't let anything, even love, to rule your life.
Be an independent yet smart women, so men would respect you and treat you well.

Home Sweet Home

2009-04-22T01:40:00.000-07:00

Hey dudes, I'm baackk..!!

Well, a week in Depok surely has done me good.
No parents, no maids.. I really have to take care of myself.
I went there with 5 friends.. They're (surprisingly) really fun and crazy.. not to mention authistic.

What we've done are mostly debating, feeding ourselves, watching movies. LOL.
Whoa, and play cards.

The debate competition was hard, really. Well, for rookies like us actually..
7 from ISDC's Top 9s were joining..
The winner is SMAN 8 Yogyakarta.

The ajudicators were good and qualified. I've made a lot of friends there, not that much, but definitely some.
I also won some boys' hearts.. LOL.

I DEFINITELY gonna miss it all.. I had lots of memories there, we've been thru' both the good and bad..
We've got LOADS of experience..

Anyway, seems a lotta things gonna change now.
I don't regret it. AT ALL. xoxo.

Tryna' Think Outta' The Box..

2009-04-09T03:23:00.000-07:00

Phew. What a hot day.
Guys, finally my team earned something, after all we'd struggled thru'..
I even *blush* cried the day before the competiotion..
Cz I'm not sure if we could do it.

But guess what?
We'd sweep clean the pre-elim! *sorry for quoting you, Garlan*
And we came out as the 3rd winner..
And that's our first comp. Wow.

Anyway, we're up to another competition in the 15th of this month..
It's held by University of Indonesia, Depok.
And it's the 2nd best competition in Indonesia, after ISDC.
The motions are so hard!

Not that hard, actually. But quite unusual for someone like me.. Well, before I joined debate, all I cared about was friends, clothes and music. Sounds pretty shallow, huh?
But I've got a passion for music. I'd like to be MTv Asia's VJ someday :-D

Well, so my friends and I were given exemptions every single day.. Even though we ended playing Doggie Dash in the library. ROFL.
But we'd searched almost half of the matters, so that's okay.

Now, we gotta figure out the arguments.
I wasn't into critical thinking, but I think I'm supposed to do that now.
Thank God our seniors are so helpful. They're all fully experienced.

Oh yeah, I've been missing LOTS of classes and LOADS of subjects lately.
Oh no.. maths..

Anyone, wish us luck, okay?
Wish me that I would reach ALL my goals..
Emanuelle :-D

>> Kevin and Priski, Jai Ho!!

Yaay!!

2009-03-26T23:07:00.000-07:00

Hey guys.. I haven't wrote in like, years!
Well.. I'm up to nothing actually..
Last February, there weren't any lessons at school, because of the PSR - Porjar comps, everyone was running here and there frantically.

Me?
Oh, I was just hopping from place to place to watch my friends compete.. LOL.

Anyway, I was assigned to do the March - April edition of my school's English bulletin board.
Isn't that great?
Well.. except I got to handwrite all the articles on my own.. and translate it.
Duh.

I spent my Galungan & Kuningan holiday in Jakarta.. Luckily I bought the 2 last series of The Princess Diaries, I love it so much. Meg Cabot is soo talented.
Princess Mia ended being BFF with Lana, she become real stylish, and she GOT back with Michael Moscovitz..

Lately I've been totally addicted to Lady GaGa, Fall Out Boy, Iron & Wine and surprisingly, Muse!
Maybe I've been listening to Supermassive Black hole coz it appeared on Twilight..

Oh yeah, and Taylor Swift.
Her problems with Joe Jonas makes me hate The JoBro even more..
For me, they sounds waay too "pop" and cheesy.
God, which punk-pop band sings for Disney??
>> Sorry, Disney.. I still heart you.

I am currently searching for facts that would help me build my (debate) case..
The motions are real unusual.
Gotta go..

Hate This

2009-02-10T23:21:00.000-08:00

A hellenic day it is..

First, I went to school this rainy morning wearing sandals. Turned out they didn't want us to wear it.
Second, my BF wasn't at school, he said he'll come at 9, and I went home at 8.30 .
I'm supposed to tell him sth, but it had to be cancelled.
Third, I'm stuck at home, with nothing to do.
Fourth, I figuerd out that what I can do is play my PS and the computer.
Fifth, The Sims 2 is so boring. They need so much food and sleep and showers..
Sixth, I asked my BF if I could call him, he said later.. He texted me 5 hours later, to tell me I can call him then. Ew.
Seventh, my 'rents are arguing about lots of things..
Eighth, and both of them tells me what they think - I feel confused. Pulled in 2 directions.
Ninth, I don't have anything to eat..
Tenth, now my BF says sorry, but i don't feel like forgiving him. Ha. I have lots of ppl I can talk to. Like him. He's too late.

Bleeding Love - Leona Lewis

2009-02-10T23:02:00.000-08:00

A good way to kill time.. try it, guys ^^

1. Put your music on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
Take U There - Sean Kingston

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Cinta Ini Membunuhku - D' Masiv

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
LOST HEAVEN - L'Arc ~ en ~ Ciel

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Oblivion - 30 STM

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Lifeboats - Snow Patrol

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Disturbia - Rihanna

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
This Afternoon - Nickelback

WHAT IS 2+2?
Kiss Me - Sixpence None The Richer

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
I Believe In You - Kylie Minogue

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
The Fear - Lily Allen

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Tick Tick Boom - The Hives

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Tattoo - Jordin Sparks

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Numb - Linkin Park

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Notion - Kings Of Leon

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
HEAVEN - Ayumi Hamasaki

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
The Night Sky - Keane

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
WORLD'S END - GLAY

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Look What You've Done - Jet

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Whatever You Like - T.I.

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Rooftops ANd Invitations - Dashboard Confessional

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Liar (It Takes One To Know One) - Taking Back Sunday

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Illegal Attacks - Ian Brown

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Goodbye For Now - P.O.D.

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
You Don't Love Me - The Kooks

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Pieces - Sum 41

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Gotta Be Somebody - Nickelback

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Used To - Daughtry

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
I Fall - Spur 58

WHAT WOULD YOU SAY, WHEN YOU MEET YOUR BOSS?
Handle This - Sum 41

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Bleeding Love - Leona Lewis

Another Problem.

2009-01-29T02:11:00.000-08:00

Hey.. this day kinda sucks.

My organization held a meeting, the 10th and 11th graduate (it means we're officialy members of the organization) was gathered.
2 alumnus of the org' talks about how they're soo disappointed.
On one of our performance, a lot of members didn't show up.

God.. they should know I don't drive..
Besides, the play's far from my house. I WONT ask my mom to drive me there.

To top it off, my friend, the leader-to-be, is so damn mischievous.
See, I have a close friend, and she's an honest girl.
She's asked to play the guitar a lot by this cunning girl.

She's using my friend.
Does she know how my friend is so pressured to balance her school works AND play in our performances?
FYI, she's also in the debate group like me.

This girl also tails our alumnus. Eww.
Way too ambitious. She need to realize, if she'd like to be a leader, she has to take account what WE, ALL MEMBERS, want.

Being a leader isn't about putting on a high goal to achieve.
She has to be able to motivate us. Not setting a goal, and force us to achieve it.
What a senior-pet.

Then in debate, I was late, so 2 of my debate friends was told to team up with someone else - they had no choice.
I'm sad :'(

Question?

2009-01-25T16:20:00.000-08:00

I feel like asking why.

Really. See, I'm curious how life's full of s***.
People want sex, getting drunk,
They lusted over each other, over money,
People get corrupt (not only for those on the government-it happens around us. School. Bribing the police.)
They have affairs...
it would be a never ending wishlist.

I'm not someone extremely going against those things.
It's their right to do so anyway.
I'm just questioning those, how it feels great-to us, but giving bad impacts to those around us.. and sometimes those we love.

I saw my mom's friend's husband, in a cafe with another girl.
We weren't sure, but my mom's almost positive he's her friend's husband.
Feelings I can't explain run through my mind.
(Btw it made me think of my boyfriend too. FYI. )

Is there any certain way to ensure those things not to happen?
I hate to feel betrayed. I believe so do others.
But still, why?

You know, I'm even thinking not to get married in my life. LOL.
Silly thought, my parents would never let me do that.
I'm only a teen.. too young to think about those problems.

Back to the topic.
All those s*** is so common, that it feels natural to happen.
Even I might change my mind over this subject tomorrow, wondering why I ever think about those things.That's why I quickly wrote this down.

Does any of you have any solution? Cz I don't.

Nickelback.. again.

2009-01-25T15:58:00.000-08:00

Hey, i know it's a little too late for this, but i still have to tell.
Do you ever watch Nickelback's video clip for Savin' Me?
If not.. uh, you really gotta see it.

It tells about a man, he's on his mobile, and he was almost hit by a bus when crossing the road, but someone saved him.
That someone walked away, so the man didn't have any clue who saved him.

Suddenly, he's able to see people's lives - how long they still have in this world - displayed on top of them, like a timer.
He's confused and curious, and people thought he's weird, giving him a what-a-freak look.
He saw an old lady took away by an ambulance, the timer on top of her head saying she just had seconds left in this world. That man saw the timer goes 5, 4, 3, 2, 1.. and that old lady's gone.
He saw a pregnant woman, having timers both on her head and on her belly.

He continued walking.. then he saw a woman going into a car, and from the timer on top of her head, he knew she's gonna die.
So he pulled her back.

Turned out a part of a building machine fell from above, crushing directly into her car. Our hero then walked away..
Then that woman also can see people's lives, timed on top of them.

What do you think?

I feel this clip tells us to keep saving people, and not stop, to keep it running in a chain.

Actually I want to upload it, but the file's too big. Sorry..

Rainy Day

2009-01-23T23:12:00.000-08:00

What a bad weather.. LOL.
See, it's rainy, but the air's way too humid, so it wasn't nice at all.

I'm good at doing assignments this 2nd semester.. Gee, somehow i don't feel sleepy anymore. Instead, i feel like joking with my friends.. LOL.

My seniors decided to, um, intensify the debate learning thing. Actually, we do lack of skills. Now I'm a little panicked, quite eager to be good at it. Now we have a meeting every day, an hour only.
I don't understand why only one of my seniors is responsible of teaching us.. I really think they should arrange a schedule.. Cz, see., it isn't fair that she should spare an amount of her time to teach us.
Free, guys.

Have you all listened to Folie à Deux by Fall Out Boy?
I'm still not used to it, I wonder why.
Nickelback still rocks their new album :)

New things to try : Eat McFlurry with salty fries, and tell me what you think.

2009's Coming..

2008-12-31T00:58:00.000-08:00

Hello :)
I haven't write since, um.. i dunno.

Well, ppl.. as we all can see, 2008 is coming to an end..
It seems I haven't done anything this year, except causing a little chaos at my school, haha.
Oh, yeah. My grades went up, thankfully.
And.. my friends are all anxious coz my debate senior is so moody, she rarely teaches us anything.
Then..?

Yea, I really dunno what to do, guys. This holiday I bought Twilight, then New Moon and Eclipse.. Why I'm a step behind? lol.
I've been spending my days reading.. Sometimes I'll go online, log on to facebook.. Is friendster losing its popularity, or what?

Jeez. I only have 6 more months with him and then he'll go somewhere. I know you'll think I'm crazy, but I really can't help it.
Think I'm liking him. Is that possible? The way he acted is more than just friendship, I'm almost positive.
But how could I choose between them?

I hate it. I really can't hurt my current BF's feelings. I'm not even sure if I can break up with him and continue my life.
But it doesn't mean I can just let go.

I'm really confused atm. If I'm still with my current BF, this guy will think I'm not interested in him..
Even if he knows I'm interested,
He still can't do anything coz I'm taken already. Get it?

And with only 6 months left, I have to make a decision soon..

How if it doesn't work out for me and him?
How if I regret breaking up with my current BF?
What will my friends think?
What will his friends think?
What will my BF's friends think?

Hate - I Really Don't Like " It "

2008-12-16T23:30:00.000-08:00

Know what?

Okay. first, a teacher was giving announcements this morning, when he starts saying about how to make friends, be selective, choose your friends carefully.. etc, dammit, i got really damn mad!

How come he could be so sure about it?

The worst part, he said friends are best chosen from my school.
Get it?
So, he's saying that students from my school are the best, most high quality, etc.
Come on.. he made me so sick and damn furious, i gotta move to the back line at this morning's assembly.

This morning, the teachers also called students who haven't paid the school fee. No, it doesn't mean they can't afford it, it's just they forget to.
One of my friend (senior, actually) came late, and he also hasn't paid the fee, he was sent to the front along with other students.
The teacher said something like, " Look at him.. He couldn't be an example (as a good int'l student).. you're in the int'l class, but you're like this.. "

OMG. i cant find the right word to explain how MAD i am.
did he have to say that?

they can't behave.
they are devils.
they are conventional.
they are nobodies.
they can't respect ppl.
they act like the world is theirs.

sth also happened in my EC...
it's a really long story, but the main prob is that the teacher accused my friends of something, which they didn't do, but the teacher stays on his opinion..

maybe apart from the truth, my friends are always gonna be wrong, in this case.
that's what my teacher probably thinks.

he can't face the truth.

my friends were all like, " hell, what's wrong with this teacher? We've said the truth, and he said that we're lying, "

OMG. This is absolutely against Human Rights.
They force us to do what they want, and accept anything they think as true.
Maybe they'd like to show us who's the boss.

damn.
dunno what to say anymore.

How You Remind Me

2008-12-12T02:03:00.000-08:00

Never made it as a wise man,
I couldn't cut it as a poor man stealin'.
Tired of livin' like a blind man,
I'm sick of sight without a sense of feelin,

And this is how you remind me
This is how you remind me
Of what I really am
This is how you remind me
Of what I really am

It's not like you to say sorry
I was waiting on a different story
This time I'm mistaken
For handing you a heart worth breakin'
And I've been wrong,
I've been down
Been to the bottom of every bottle
These five words in my head
Scream "Are we having fun yet?"

yeah, yeah, yeah,no no
yeah, yeah, yeah, no no

It's not like you didn't know that
I said I love you and I swear I still do
And it must have been so bad
Cause living with me must have damn near killed you

And this is how you remind me
Of what I really am
This is how you remind me
Of what I really am

It's not like you to say sorry
I was waiting on a different story
This time I'm mistaken
For handing you a heart worth breakin'
And I've been wrong,
I've been down
Been to the bottom of every bottle
These five words in my head
Scream "Are we having fun yet?"

How You Remind Me - Nickelback

Was It A Dream?

2008-12-12T01:55:00.000-08:00

Your defenses were on high
Your walls built deep inside
Yeah I'm a selfish bastard
But at least I'm not alone

My intentions never change
What I want still stays the same
And I know what I should do
it's time to set myself on fire

Was it a dream?
Was it a dream?
Is this the only evidence that proves it
A photograph of you and I

Your reflection I've erased
Like a thousand burned out yesterdays
Believe me when I say goodbye forever
Is for good

Was it a dream?
Was it a dream?
Is this the only evidence that proves
A photograph of you and I

Was it a dream?
Was it a dream?
Is this the only evidence that proves
A photograph of you and I
(A photograph of you and I)

Was it a dream?
Was it a dream?
Is this the only evidence that proves
A photograph of you and I
A photograph of you and I
A photograph of you and I

IN LOVE...
IN LOVE...

Was It A Dream? - 30 Seconds To Mars

Hi ^^

2008-12-12T00:54:00.000-08:00

Hi everyone..
well, i'm not sure what to say. hee.
cz i'm supposed to work on my Budi Pekerti paper right now.
then i gotta study math and chemistry for tomorrow..
hell. i scored 6 at last week's chemistry test. it's supposed to be 6.67 though, cz the person checking my paper (not my teacher) didn't do it correctly.

FYI, i should've been able to get 8.2 on the subject..
i misunderstand a few questons.

Damn x(

oh, yea.. sometimes i'd like to write about sth that has been going thru' my mind.
it's about the RACIAL DISCRIMINATION in my school lately.
but it's such a long story.

and the CCTV is now watching us, without missing every second..
i feel they're prying on me and my privacy.

anyway, tonight's moon is the full moon,
so i dressed up in pakaian adat ringan - Balinese traditional clothes - today.. ^^

A real crazy thing...

2008-12-04T01:23:00.000-08:00

My school has a BK, which means counselor’s help or something like that.
I think it’s supposed to be helping us through our problems and make us a better student.

In fact, it didn’t.

They critic and judge us a damn lot. They actually force us to follow rules, instead of making us follow those rules by ourselves.
For example, if you wear your skirt between your waistline and hips, they’ll tell you to pull it up.

Oh. My. God.

This is so crazy. Why should I wear my skirt high-waisted?
The worst part is that my skirt has to be 10 cm below my knees.
Mine’s only 6. Don’t give a damn about what they say.

If you’re absent, you’ll be called directly to the BK. They’ll ask you why you are absent, etc.
And if you’re late... whoa.
Once my friend was called to BK when she was late.
You know what?
They called her dad in!!!
Just because she’s late!!!
How crazy is that? So OTT.

It’s like; lateness can happen to anyone on earth.
My friend’s dad couldn’t believe he’s called only because his daughter was late.

When my BK teacher knows my friend has a boyfriend, she told my friend to share with her if they have problems.
It’s so lame.
In fact, if they do have problems, what she’ll say won’t have other meaning except not to hook up when you're still a student, or you're supposed to focus on your studies, etc.

I never talked to teachers (teachers I’ve described above) like that. I speak to ‘em only if needed.
One of my teacher also said to me, that he’s criticized a lot. By those oldies, I assume.
Let’s say, he isn’t accepted easily.

I hate people who judge us by our looks. No, it doesn’t only mean judging by whether our style’s cool or not.

It also means judging by how you wear your uniform. If you don’t follow the rules, you’re automatically a bad student. You’re a rebel. They’ll look at you with a sneer.
They’ll be cynical, sarcastic.

There’s still a huge diversity, even in uniforms. I think nothing matters if you wear your trousers or skirts not exactly on your waistline. Just don’t wear it hipster. And as long as your shirt is hot too tight, I think it’s OK.
One of my teacher once said to me, that my sleeves were too short.
It’s only about 8-10 cm above my elbow... She said it has to be elbow-length.

Oh well, at least don’t have to be there forever…

Hi ^^

2008-10-21T22:01:00.000-07:00

Hey guys.
This is my 1st post in my new blog..

Well, I live in Bali but i used to live in Perth,
now attending SMAN 4 Denpasar a.k.a. FourSMA,
a christian,
I enjoy reading, writing, going to the mall, drawing abstract figures, learning something new, listening to my iPod, playing games, texting on my mobes, doing crafts, etc,
I read fiction (mystery, adventure) and magazines such as ViVi, National Geographic, Dolly, teenVOGUE, and also The Word, comics and school textbooks,
I love gothic-inspired style,
I love Japan,
I'd like to be a great designer,
I'm not an emo but I heart `em very much,
I love various genres of movies and music,
such as rock (all kinds of rock) , J-Rock, Praise & Worship, Jazz, Techno, Pop,
and action, comedy, detectives, sometimes romance and thriller movies.

I'll always listen to these bands :

FOB and Gackt
Angels & Airwaves
Saosin
L' arc ~ en ~ ciel and The Click Five
Foo Fighters and Muse
Switchfoot
Interpol, Snow Patrol and Coldplay
Sum 41, Blink 182 and The Used
Good Charlotte and Nickelback
THE RED JUMPSUIT APPARATUS
New Found Glory and Arctic Monkeys
+44 and Incubus
Linkin Park and Keane
Boys Like Girls and Bloc Party
Circa Survive and Dashboard Confessional
Kings of Convenience
Plain White T's and The Wombats
Paramore and 30 Seconds To Mars
Rihanna, BEP and jordin Sparks
Kanye West
The Police and RHCP
Glay, Namie Amuro and Utada Hikaru
Ayumi Hamasaki

And that's it!